When I decided on a release date for my book Suicide; Aftermath and Beyond I sent emails to every mainstream media house I could think of.
Some of them I attempted to contact multiple times.
The response was a resounding silence. Nothing. Nothing at all.
All I wanted was someone to do a small article on my book and outline the reasons why I wrote it and why I believe it can help a few people.
But, alas, nobody was the slightest bit interested.
Not even enough to reply to tell me to go away.
Except for one.
When I contacted Duncan Garner some time ago to inquire about getting on his AM show to tell a different side of the story to what's usually told via his usual guest stars, I was initially met with silence and when I kept inquiring I was met with a response that told me 'I would get you on the show but frankly you're coming across as a bit aggressive' and it finished up pretty much telling me to 'fuck off'.
And so it goes.
But hey, at least he took the time to tell me to fuck off, nobody else did!
So, in that moment the high regard in which I held Duncan instantly became the opposite.
Until another famous person dies by suicide, all the mainstream media will be interested in are suicide stories about conflict.
Stories that sell newspapers or bait people to click links using sensational headlines.
They may even run the odd story here and there featuring the same person/people saying the same old stuff while advocating for change.
I've now completely quit trying to get any mainstream media outlet interested in anything I have to say.
My book is not for profit, it's all been funded out of my own pocket and all I don't really care if I don't even cover the cost of it all, it's not about that.
I just want people to see a different side of the suicide story, one that doesn't start and finish with the mental health system and how it's failing everyone.
A story that's not one of depression and mental illness, but about suicide through the eyes of an ordinary New Zealander, not a celebrity.
My book, through some great advice and some effort, is starting to make it's way into public libraries which gives me confidence that it will be read and it might even help a few people.
I'm waiting to hear back from a couple of distributors too, hopefully someone wants to run with it.
So, mainstream media, this is where you and I part ways.
I will not make any more approaches, because despite what you all portray, you don't actually care.
If it doesn't increase your ratings, sell a paper, or get a click you don't care.
If any media person reads this, feel free to make contact.